Ha!!! Apparently middle age has me all ….” NO MORE WAITING!” Yes, you did read that title right. In 2018 I turned 41 in August and fell in love with a horse named Handsome George. I should probably back up one more year and share that in 2017 I turned 40 and decided I wasn’t waiting anymore and signed my self up for horse riding lessons. To say I fell in love right away is an understatement .. well I fell in love with the horses.
I did not fall in love with riding. I mean come on !! Have you tried a posting trot when you are 50 lbs over weight ? It is dreadful and a pretty quick reminder that you need to start getting in shape; if you want to make it around the arena at least once in a trot.
I tried to blame the horse but that didn’t seem believable.
So after I used up my Groupon lesson.. I decided that no matter what, I was continuing with horse lessons. The calm that these animals brought me was incredible.
You see I suffered from incredible anxiety. I always thought my life was going too good so obviously my brain needed to tell me that I would be punished somehow so I was always waiting for worst case scenario. I would be enjoying and laughing with my kids and then my mind would say “nope, you better stop because something awful is going to happen to them if you are happy, be prepared for the worst because it is happening.” This is how everyday was … I would be booking Dr. appointments for all of us because I thought one of us had lumps or rashes that would mean certain death.. or heart pain and head pain that meant I was obviously having a heart attack or brain aneurism. It was awful around here. My husband could only listen for so long to me telling him his children or wife had some awful thing happening to them.
Alright back to this horse business…. So yes that hour of focusing on something else was amazing, the calm that these animals brought me is something I can’t even put into words.. even as I type I want to cry with grateful tears for taking that leap and signing up. Thank goodness for turning 40!
So 6 weeks into my lessons it was a rainy night and I was placed on this big boy named George. As we were riding something outside spooked him and he did a little hop; that was it, I felt like I needed to keep him safe, After the lesson while I was untacking him, he bent his head to mine and I took in a big breath and the calm that filled me was inexplainable. This horse and I were connected. I only rode George one more time in my lessons but for the next year our connection would only become stronger.
From September to December I continued to take lessons because I was super smart and bought a pack of 12 when there was room on the credit card… I know you are all applauding my for my genius thinking …. but by January I needed to come up with a plan because this riding thing was not cheap! So imagine my delight when in February’s A&T Equestrian Newsletter they were advertising that Adults could join in on the work credit program… what does this mean you ask? It meant that not only did I have a way to pay for my lessons but that I would be able to work with the horses as well! WOO HOO!!
OH MY GOSH the pure joy I felt walking into the barn that morning of my first shift, will stay with me forever! Of course once that 4 hour shift of cleaning stalls and carrying water buckets back and forth was done I couldn’t move any muscles. BUT the horse snuggles were endless!!! Also this is how I was able to spend time with George as well.
Alright lets jump ahead 11 months to December 2018 and there are talks of the barn findingi a more suitable home for george… ( because he really is a 1 person horse… meaning I am that 1 person)
I didn’t hesitate ! I was in the office and was like I will buy him!!!!!!! Do you want to think about it Aubrey? NOPE he is MINE!!! Merry Christmas to me…. I didn’t have a job I didn’t run it by my family I just knew this HORSE was my heart! he calmed me, brought me joy, loved me and I needed him…..
Now I won’t go into much detail on how my hubby reacted or how his friends like to re enact what he had to say to them about his wife buying a horse… It’s all good now! Lets just say I have 3 jobs and a happy husband lol